Hey you guys , this is my first blog and I don’t know if I am excited , because my current situation is really very bad 🙁 . I decided to start blogging because I think it will make me feel better so here is my story PS- you may not like it much.
I am a really sensitive person , from the age of 6 I had a weak heart , I would cry for really small things , I remember when I was a third grader I cried because a guy told me that my lunch bag is ugly(yeah I was 7 years young so it was childish ). The real thing starts when I changed my school at 3rd grade , I left my old school because it was too strict and I suffered with that , . Well pneumonia had hit me two times once at 3rd grade and once at 4th grade I was admitted at the hospital for like 40 days, both the times so I had to take a lot of leaves for that . My classmates started judging me like I am a lazy sloth who doesn’t care about her studies ( my classmates are the worst people i’ve ever met , maybe except 2 or 3) . So, 5th grade was my nightmare there was this social teacher who always hated me for nothing well she was like racist sort of person and pointed me out for everything I couldn’t bare that anymore , once at last I went crying to my mom , my mom had a word with her the next day and then my social teacher started to act normal even though she had grudge on me from inside . 6th grade was the time I started to harm myself ( yeah it is stupid for some people but I could not help myself ) there was this economics teacher who just abused me for nothing , she pulled my hair yelling at me like ” why did you smile while i was teaching ” I swear I did not smile , maybe I just moved my lips or that teacher just used me to show other students that she is strict and do not mess with her .. Then I had got good friends at 7th grade and I was strong enough to face my social teacher but I couldn’t bare her at 8th grade because I don’t know why , I was never a strong person , so by her fear I did not go to school for two weeks , that was the time i hit anxiety yes at the age of 13 where people usually hit it , my mom had hired a therapist for me , actually I went to two different therapists the same year and that made me feel lighter , I stopped harming myself started making new friends and I was feeling kinda better , but not like teachers stopped hating me. I had got more enemies in 9th grade but i was ok with that because I had some friends to cheer me up ( who later turned to be fake ) and even i am a really good friend people just don’t realise . Now I am in 10th and I am facing a lot of problems , my summer vacations were going . When 10th grade started , there was not a day I was happy , my first two months of 10th grade went bad because of the splitting and my friends leaving me out . I had only two good friends Rajath and Ganesh I am really really grateful to them . After second term of 10th there were more enemies all my teachers hated me for nothing seriously NOTHING. They would cut my marks on purpose so I stopped writing my name on the worksheets . My maths teacher was my biggest Rival , he always pointed me out and insulted me , I cried with myself and nobody really noticed me . The worst part is I am only left with two friends in my school my teachers separated my friends from me because they don’t want me to be happy. There is this extra classes for these few students who are not good at mathematics ( maths ruined my life) , my teachers cancelled the classes without informing the previous day , so I always had to wait for my vehicle for one whole hour , my school is soo bad that , the receptionist did not allow me to call my mom even if I requested her so much , well in my school all teachers are really very partial to me , if it would be someone else then they would have dropped that student to their home by their own vehicle . Once during special classes my social teacher appointed me to mind a class which was at the time of special classes , my headmistress doubted me if I bunked(dumped) the class , I told her about this minding thing , she called koma and asked and you wouldn’t believe this my social teacher lied that she hadn’t appointed me and i was lying about that that was the worst thing even happend to me , I did not go to school for one week , my headmistress called my mom and lied that I was sitting in 9th grade and dumped the class. Have you ever seen teachers like this? My teachers always isolated me and this was my main cause of anxiety. My classmates started judging me. I am getting bullied mentally , nobody knows this . And I am still suffering . Thanks a lot for reading this , if you can relate to my problems then please make a comment if not , we can discuss our problems through Instagram :). Have a good day . And the concept of this story “She bullies herself ” you will get to know it in the last part of the story. Thank you 🙂 .
