How could you throw three years away?
All I can do is stare in dismay.
I just want you to talk but you don’t know what to say.
So I just decide to leave and let you think for the day.
My heart’s broken in two.
But what is it to you?
How could you not let me know how you felt all along?
When did dating me start feeling so wrong?
You’re like the grinch who stole Christmas, you took away my joy.
You played with my emotions like I was just a dumb toy.
Then tell me that I’m what you want in the end.
But right now you’d rather just be my friend.
You risked losing the person who could love you forever.
I might come back but maybe I won’t ever.
We were in a great relationship with terrible communication.
And I know one day, you’ll come to the realization,
That you made a mistake and want me back.
That is wasn’t just me, your heart is broke too.
Or that life without me is nothing but black.
But what if you say all this and I don’t want you?
Life is way too short not to be with the one you love.
But you saw me as someone you needed to get rid of.
At least for now, so you can have time to yourself.
Meanwhile you just stuck me on the shelf.
How long will I sit collecting dust?
How long until you can earn my trust?
Tell me, how did we stop being us?
Was it our jealousy that made such a fuss?
Fights every night, can’t get this right.
Maybe this was for the best, but it’s hard to put these questions to rest.
Just know I’ll love you for my whole life.
And I hope one day I can be your wife.
Until that day comes, I’ll just wonder how?
How can you want me in the future but now now?
