Why am I trying to make you laugh?
Have I known sadness this bad?
You caused me pain and I should be laughing,
But seeing you in pain and lost in thinking,
Maybe I could let go of this one thing..
I wonder how you hurt,
Is it bad as I have had?
Or right now, you know you’re just sad
and later realize you’re not anymore mad
Then you’ll crawl back right up and be glad?
I don’t know you anymore. That’s for sure.
I may still recognize your face and feature
But I never dream anymore of an ‘us’ in the future.
Maybe one day we both will regret this,
But I want you to remember how it went like this,
I know I went through a desperate love a crisis.
I can only gaze at you and maybe put a smirk,
But it wont be the same smile you used to cause,
A gentle thin line you can only bought
And it will never be the same heart beat when I see you to a door
Because you made it sure
That it was all cruel and a disease we never found a cure..
So much for the months that I had loved you too much,
So much for keeping what was supposed to be said,
By and by maybe I may fall again,
But by God, I will make sure its not to you once again.
I’m sorry it has come to this,
The pain you feel right now may only be just as half as I felt,
It may kill you inside right now,
But you have to know, you made me swallowed a bomb
It exploded right into my heart
Next to the pile of unspoken promises I wish to tell you
and to the bags of memories I can only have with you..